Look Who's Talking: Baby Bunnykins

Baby Bunnykins is a 56-year-old adult baby, meaning he has paraphilic infantilism—a condition characterized by the uncontrollable desire to wear diapers and act and be treated like a baby. Born in London, Baby Bunnykins devoted much of his life to traveling the world studying Buddhism, and was a monk for 12 years before settling in Thailand, where he recently founded the Thai Adult Baby Nursery. Manchildren from around the globe flock to this toddler Shangri-La for the chance to unleash their inner baby without fear or shame, to be cared for 24/7 by an in-house nanny, to sleep in a crib, be bathed, fed, snuggled, and showered with unbridled love and attention as if they were once again new to this world. To many Baby Bunnykins is seen as the Mother Teresa of the adult baby community, famed as an advocate for mommyless ABs everywhere.

So when did the bitty baby wealize he loved wearing diapy wipies?
Baby Bunnykins: I started stealing diapers off clotheslines when I was 12. The first time I had the urge I was walking home from school and passed by a stroller with a diaper inside it. I didn’t really know why I wanted it, but I grabbed the diaper and ran off. I hid it in some linen in my bedroom, and would take it out whenever I was alone.

And what did the little baby do next?
When I was 16 I moved away from home to Australia, and with my newfound freedom I became more adventurous. I hired a seamstress to make baby clothing costumes for me, and would buy adult diapers to wear around the house and under my pants while in public. But I didn’t know anyone else who did this, so I was very confused—I knew I was interested in girls, but I also wanted to be a baby. I felt completely alone.

And when did bitty Baby Bunnykins find out he wasn’t the only one?
In about ‘85 I found a magazine in a sex shop with photos of men and cute girls in diapers, and women in nurses and nanny uniforms. I thought ahh! and bought four copies. There was an ad in the mag for an organization called DPF, which was promoting the scene in America. I joined and they sent me books, clothing, and the contacts for other ABs, and through DPF I formed some great friendships.

The wittle baby made friendsie-wendsies?
Yes, I met a mistress friend who would bring me to fetish parties. I’d dress in a romper suit and she’d wheel me there in a big baby buggy. Through her I met a nanny who would take me to the movies and bottle-feed me in the theater. I’d pay $100 for a couple hours but we’d end up spending the whole day together just because she enjoyed being with me. She had a three-year-old son and she’d sit me on the floor with him and say “All right, play.” It was great.

So what is a normal day like for my wittly cutie pie?
I live in Thailand with my mommy, who is my girlfriend, and a live-in nanny. I work as a kindergarten teacher, so I come home from work every day and the nanny bathes me in my special blue bathtub, and afterward she’ll powder me, put my diaper on, and put me in the crib for a nap. Then nanny wakes me up and changes my diaper, gives me a bottle, and I sit and watch TV and play with toys, or she sticks me in the playpen. My mommy comes home around 8 PM.

Do you make pee pee and poo poo in your diapy?
I do, but I don’t do number two all the time. I will occasionally just to give the nanny something to do.

Does this make the baby get all sexy wexy?
It’s not really about that. I don’t get sexually aroused by the nanny at all. When she bathes me my willy stays down. When mommy does it, it goes up, but I have a strong sexual attraction to my mommy. To be truthful, sex isn’t that important to me. I was a virgin until I was 38. I dated girls, but I was so screwed up with wanting to be a baby that no relationship lasted very long.

And does mommy love taking care of her bad little boy?
With the nanny the caretaking is more clinical, but with mommy everything is done with love—tickles, blowing on my tummy, changing my diaper, lightly slapping my bottom, putting me over her knee and saying I’m a naughty boy—all the nice things a mother would do to her baby.

What’s the sexy wexy like between mommy and baby?
The only way I can have sex is thinking about baby things. It’s weird, I realize, but mommy accepts that. I suck on her tits while we have sex, baby talk, things like that.

What about when baby gets hungy? Has baby ever breastfed?
When my ex-wife was breastfeeding our son I would latch on after him and drink up. My mommy now would love to breastfeed me, but because of the long hours she works it’s just not practical. You need to be on the breast every day, 5 or 6 times a day, to induce lactation in a woman who isn’t pregnant.

Has the big boy ever wondered why he wants to be an itty bitty baby?
I had a traumatizing childhood, so I link that to the reasons why I want to be nurtured and loved. I used to think all ABs were wounded as children like I was, but I’ve spoken to many people who had an amazing childhood and still ended up an adult baby.

Traumatizing how?
My mother was a prostitute in London in the 50s. As an infant, social services took me from her. I was placed in a children’s home and at four a couple adopted me. I didn’t like them; they weren’t child friendly and were very violent, and I was verbally and physically abused by my father. I got out as soon as I turned 16.

And then baby spent some time as a Buddhist monky wonk?
Yes. In the 70s I was living a really psychedelic lifestyle in a hippie community in Queensland. I began sitting in on teachings at a nearby Buddhist center and fell in love. After that I spent nearly 15 years traveling the world—places like India, Switzerland, and Malaysia—studying Buddhism from a Tibetan perspective.

A common criticism of the fetish is that all ABs are pedophile wedophiles.
I just ignore that. Being an AB is about being involved with your own inner child, nothing else.

Why did the witty baby start the Thai Adult Baby Nursery last year?
I just see so many babies missing out—they want a mommy and someone to look after them, but they can’t find it. I wanted to offer babies somewhere to come that wasn’t too expensive, where they could really experience being a baby. A lot of people do things like this in the West, but they charge $300 or $400 for a couple hours. What we offer includes a fully equipped nursery, and a full-time nanny who stays with you all day until bedtime, who will even check your diaper in the middle of the night, all for $200 a day. I’m never going to get rich from it, but it’s a labor of love.

Kinky Sex Slave to a Quadriplegic

Pink is a 42 year old part-time nanny and full-time kinkster from Seattle, Washington. She and her husband have been in a polyamorous relationship for 12 years. About a year ago Pink started dating Patrick, an employee of the US government and a quadriplegic. She has since become Patrick’s sex slave, and serves him in every way he sees fit—sucking blood into his penis to make it hard, helping him have bowel movements, etc. Pink talked to me about her life of submission.

How did you meet Patrick?
We met at The Center for Sex Positive Culture in Seattle. At first when he rolled up to me I thought, “What does this guy have to offer me? I want a dominant male who will have his way with me, and this guy can't do much of anything.” But we spent a lot of time talking and though I didn’t think much of it, in the weeks that followed I kept thinking about him and coming up with things I wanted to see if he could do. Two months later I ran into him at the center again, and he asked if I wanted to get in the cuddle pile with him, where we started to cuddle and make out. Man he is the best kisser ever!

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What’s the cuddle pile?
It’s a pile of people on the floor cuddling. They have cuddle piles at the center on Wednesdays at a night called The Hump.

Sounds cute. When did your relationship become more serious?
After that we started meeting at The Hump for make-out time, and soon I started to fall in love with him. I begged him to spend more time with me, but Patrick’s time is not always free because he must devote every other day to having a bowel movement. This is something we all take for granted, but Patrick can't do it on his own. So I decide to ask if I could help out with this task so I could spend more time with him. He gave me permission, and then he trained me on what needed to be done.

What needs to be done?
Bowel program (BP) takes about 3 hours. I move Patrick into his bed and lube up his rectum and insert an enema. Then I move him from his bed to his potty chair and he uses a sliding board to push on his belly. After 30 minutes I put on gloves again, lube up my finger and stick it in his rectum, then swirl my finger around inside of him so it relaxes the sphincter and allows the poop to flow out easier. This process is repeated every 30 minutes until we run out of poop. Then I give him a shave and a shower, and put on his night bag for his pee, and move him into bed.

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In what ways does Patrick dominate you?

Being of slave nature, there are rules in Patrick’s house that I must follow. Here are just a few of them: I must be naked at all times; I am paid in jelly beans and am only allowed to have 10 jelly beans a day; I am not aloud to ask for time with him, I must wait until he says I may be in his presence.

Is he able to dominate you physically?
I had to have special tools made so that Patrick can control me physically. For example I had some Velcro bracelets made with claws on them, so that when I’m on top of him and in his arms he can bite me like a vampire, and if I try to get away he can dig the claws into my back and they keep me right where he wants me. Patrick has full range of motion with his arms, but his hands are stuck in a fist-like manner and he can't feel with his fingers. But he can use a long chain and twirl it around his wrist to get up speed and then hit me with it. At first we used keys on it but they drew blood, so now he uses a piece of leather and it stings like a whip but doesn't draw blood like the keys did. Another tool he uses is a 5ft bamboo cane. We can slide the cane into his closed fist and he can swing it like a true slugger. Man that one hurts, and leave welts too!

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Do you love it?
Yes! I have always wanted to be kinky, submissive slave. I want to feel the power of a man taking what he wants from me, and I enjoy the discipline and the pain that comes with serving a skilled and spirited Dom. Treat me like your slut, treat me like your slave, but always remember that I am a human being, and a woman.

Are you able to have sex at all?
Well Patrick can’t sit up on his own. In fact he can't feel anything below his nipple line on his chest, and he can't get an erection. But I want to feel him touch me and to have orgasms that he gives me, so I can pull him on top of me and slide his finger inside me as I masturbate. Oh it’s heavenly!

What about intromission?
When we started dating I asked him if it would ever be possible for us to have real sex and he said yes, but the key was to find him with morning wood. So then I started to stay the night with him and BINGO, he got hard! We have had sex about 15 times in the year we have been together. I get about 5 minutes in the mornings were I get to climb on top and feel him inside me. I can also suck a lot of blood in to his shaft and squeeze the base to keep it nice and hard.

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What kinky stuff does Patrick order you to do?
Patrick wants to be suspended in bondage, so I’m currently trying to learn about suspension techniques so that I can tie him up in the air and suck on his cock, or spin him around until he gets dizzy. I have to have slings made for him as we are not sure about rope—it can leave rope burns and cut off circulation, so this is still a work in progress. I have also been working on milking his prostate.

How cum?
My goal is to taste Patrick’s cum one day, but he doesn’t ejaculate and hasn’t seen his own cum since before he broke his neck in a skiing accident at age 14. But then recently, while doing bowel program, I found his prostate and gave it a few rubs. I wasn't trying to milk it and nothing happened at first, but about an hour later when we were in the shower his penis started to squirt white fluid. I asked him if it was cum and he said he wasn't sure and thought it may be something else, but I think it might have been a delayed ejaculation.

Does Patrick’s disability ever get in the way of him being a good Dom?
I don't think the disability gets in the way, but he’s gone through years of training himself to be nice and kind to everyone around him, so sometimes it’s hard for him to say things to me that I want to hear, like, “Be a good little slut and suck my cock.” But I guess that’s more to do with his personality than his disability.

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What do you do when you’re not serving Patrick?
I work full time as a nanny. I truly enjoy serving the families I work for, and caring for their children. Also I am a wife and a mother.

Is there any jealousy between you and your husband because of Patrick?
My husband and I have been married for 16 years, and have been polyamorous for more than 12. My husband has 3 girlfriends and I have just Patrick right now, but I have been looking for another boyfriend for about 9 months. We have found that no one person can fulfill all of our needs, and every new person we add to our lives gives us something new and different than the last. There is no jealousy between my husband and I. He loves to see me happy, and we still have sexy all the time. I love him and will be his wife forever.

What about Patrick? Does he want you all to himself?
No. In fact he goes out dancing and picks up new girls every weekend. At first I was scared I would lose him to some other girl but then I realized that none of the other girls would make it past a month or so before he asked them to leave. Patrick never wants to get married. In fact after devoting myself to him for more than a year he has never said I love you to me. He tells me that he doesn't feel love like other people. He considers himself a single slut.

I Shot off my Penis in ‘Nam

Having fully functioning, fully intact genitals is something most of us routinely take for granted. But some people, like Jim, are not so lucky. Jim accidentally shot off most of his penis while serving as a soldier in Vietnam. He was just 18 at the time, and has since struggled with his sexual identity as he is unable to have penetrative sex. I talked to Jim—now 56 and living in Orlando—about how his fluke penectomy has transformed him into a sex freak, in more ways than one.

So how exactly did the accident happen?
It all happened outside of Quang Tri, Vietnam. I was a Private in the infantry. My penis was shot off by an accidental discharge of my pistol, which was in the waistband of my pants. I would love to say I jumped on a grenade and lost my penis in some heroic fashion, but it was a stupid mistake and that’s the long and short of it--no pun intended. I have the length of my penis from the tip of my stump to my prostate. I have both my testicles and am still officially a man. I have the same fantasies and desires many other men have.  

Can you still get an erection?
Yes, my stump is about one inch when aroused. I can pee and cum from my stump.

How do you masturbate?
I have some sensation in the tip of my stump, so rubbing that area works, and testicle and prostate massage work well for me also.

Were you a virgin before the accident?
No, thank goodness. I had sex with several girls and had a steady girlfriend in the states and in Vietnam also.

Have you dated since the accident?
I’ve had occasional girlfriends. I don't believe any of them loved me, but a couple did seem to be very aroused and obviously orgasmed as I performed oral sex on them. I never married for obvious reasons. I’ve had most of my sex with prostitutes. I have two who regularly cater to my needs.

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Jim's penis now

Have you met people who are specifically turned on by the fact that you lost most of your penis?
Not really. Most just wanted to say they "fucked" a cockless man, or were curious to see what I could do.

What are you into sexually?
Receiving oral sex to my penis stump, prostate stimulation, dominant women, being humiliated and degraded by women, and ball stretching--just to name a few.

What is your ultimate fantasy?
I would like to be bound by a woman as she made fun of my stump, teased me sexually and threatened to castrate me. I know it sounds weird, but most people’s greatest fear is their most powerful sexual fantasy. I have read of many women who enjoy the rape fantasy but would never want to be raped. The loss of my testicles would completely destroy me as a man. I do not want to lose them but the fantasy is strong. I would love for a woman to taunt me and have sex with another man and make me watch.

Do you think you would have been into things like humiliation and degradation if the accident didn’t happen, or do you think your desires are symptoms of your disability?
I believe my penectomy has affected my sexual desires, yes. I did not have humiliation fantasies prior to the accident. My desire for domination started shortly after returning from Vietnam and while I was struggling with my sexuality—a struggle that has been continuous since the loss of my penis. Fantasy is a mind game, and it is true that the mind in the "biggest" sex organ.

What's the most extreme sexual situation you've ever been in?
I was involved with a male/female couple as a threesome. It was awesome. I met them at an apartment complex I was living in. During the threesome they humiliated me similar to the ways I mentioned before. I performed oral sex on the woman, and she did on me while she was being fucked by her boyfriend. I licked her boyfriend’s cock as he had sex with her. A man will do wild things for sex.

Sounds hot.
I also had an encounter with two prostitutes where one used a dildo in me as the other was sucking my stump and testicles.

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Are you attracted to men at all?
Not unless it’s part of sex with a woman where she orders me to perform on a man. This excites me as part of the humiliation fetish. But to just have sex with a man alone, no.

Is there a BDSM scene in Orlando that you take part in?
None that I have engaged in yet.

Have you suffered much ridicule because of your disability?
I guess I’m lucky that it’s not something you can see unless I’m naked, so thankfully no. But I was kicked off my Yahoo account because of pictures I uploaded of my severed penis stump, and I had to take down some photos off of a fetish site I’m part of because one person was threatening to have my account deleted. Some say they are disgusted by pictures of my stump.

And what do you say to the haters?
I say I have seen pictures on the net of some disgusting complete dicks, so fuck them.

Friends I'll Never Meet: Sarah

Sarah's Second Life Avatar

Sarah is a 25 year old girl from New Jersey. We met on a sex fetish forum and digitally bonded over our love of being tied up. As we got to know each other better I discovered that Sarah suffers from a rare form of Dwarfism, that she is a quadriplegic and is permanently on a ventilator. Because of her condition, for most of her life Sarah has had minimal contact with the outside world. In 2004 she joined Second Life. (If you’re my mom and don’t know what that is, welcome to 2003.) Since then Sarah has given up real life almost completely, choosing to function only online. In SL she has a career as a successful model, she's into kink and BDSM, and she’s currently looking for a man to spend the rest of her life with. I talked to Sarah about the reality of living completely outside reality. 

How does your disability affect your day to day life?
I need assistance to do everything. I am a quadriplegic, however I have enough movement in one hand to use a mouse, so I can use the internet by myself.

What is a normal day for you like?
I get up, get washed for the day, go on SL, eat lunch and dinner, log out and go to bed. My world is SL; mainly the only things I do in the real world are life essential.

You’ve told me that you are looking for a boyfriend, but only in Second Life, right?
Yeah, I’m looking for a relationship in SL but with real life emotions. But I’m also open to texting, instant messaging and sharing pictures. I’m over casual dating and want to find someone who I can spend the rest of my life with in SL. I’m extremely romantic! Due to circumstances, a real life partner is not right for me, and I don’t see myself ever being open to that.

Have you ever been in love?
Yes, I was in love with many people, all on SL. I’ve had several relationships. 

When did you lose your virginity?
I am a virgin in real life. I lost my SL virginity in 2004. I remember it being terrible. He mainly only used poseballs.

What are poseballs?
It’s just a way of expressing yourself in SL—they allow you to touch and stuff—but it’s the easiest way with the least effort involved.

I see, he sounds like a dick. Losing your V-card rarely lives up to the hype. Anyway, you’re really active on the fetish forum where we met. Do you consider yourself a fetishist?
Yes, definitely. I am only submissive sexually; I like to be Dominated. I like being tied up, romance and passion. I’m into the softer side of Dominance and submission. Sometimes it’s called ‘sensual BDSM.’

You’re also a member of the ‘Kink and Wicca’ forum.
Yeah, I’m Roman Catholic but I’m currently studying to be a Wiccan. I have been interested in witchcraft since I was a child. I want to help people.

In your experience, are people more promiscuous in SL than real life? Is sex less sacred in the digital world?
I would say yeah, more sex in SL. There is more access to different kinds of people and there are no physical consequences in Second Life. So, you know, no AIDS.

What was your life like before Second Life?
Well I used to be able to walk with a walker in real life. But then I got pneumonia and had to be put on a ventilator full time, so I can’t anymore. Back then I watched TV, played computer games and played in other virtual environments. Even before SL my life was lived almost entirely in my home. 

Do you dream in real life of Second Life?
I dream in both actually.

What do you like to do in SL besides kinky stuff?
I like to go dancing and shopping. And I like to work--I'm a model, a hostess, a writer, and I manage a restaurant. I work at least one of the jobs everyday. Although I don't make any real life money, which is possible to do on SL.

How is your modeling career going? 
My modeling career is going okay. I have been a model since 2004. I belong to two agencies, and I cast for shows occasionally. The most exciting thing so far was when I was a Moda Fashion Spotlight model. Moda Fashion Spotlight is a show on Treet TV, which is an entertainment network that exists inside SL.

I know they have a SL’s Next Top Model, right? Would you ever be interested in entering that? I’m obsessed with America’s Next Top Model.
As of right now, SL Next Top Model does not interest me. 

Do you model your SL avatar on your real features at all?
I have off and on. I have shoulder length brown hair in real and Second Life, and blue eyes.

Do you think people could find you attractive in real life?
Well I don’t find myself attractive, so I don’t see how others could, no.

Are there things in life you want that SL can’t provide you with?
No, none. Second Life is enough, along with email, etc.

What is your ultimate goal?
To be the number one model in Second Life, and to find an honest, loyal man who can be strong for me and who is willing to guide and teach me, and support our mutual goals. I’m looking for my forever.

Friends I'll Never Meet: Sissy Sarah

Meet my newest internet friend, Sarah. Sarah and I met about a month ago when she sent me an email confessing her hidden desire to dress up in ladies clothes, even though she is technically a he. See below:

And then I responded saying ‘Never change! I love you as you are, Sarah! However yes you should probably send me all of those photos ASAP.’ And now here we are. Below is an interview with Sarah about life, love, crossdressing, and why drinking piss is kind of hot.

So when did you become Sarah?
It was about seven years ago, but I have been dressing up in women's clothes since the age of 14. It began when my sister had a girl from Spain, Maria, staying with us on an exchange visit. One morning Maria left the bathroom wearing the prettiest baby-doll nightie I had ever seen. Then one day when I was home alone, I saw that Maria's bedroom door was open and her baby-doll nightie was on her bed. There was nothing I could do to stop myself, I stripped naked and put it on. It felt wonderful and I knew instantly that I needed to wear silk, satin, nylon and chiffon more often.

What else turns you on, besides wearing girly clothes?
The hottest thing for me is being teased by a female. Once, while shopping, I saw a very pretty dress and my girlfriend told me to try it on. I was so scared I began to tremble and said no, I can't do it (even though I wanted to), but she insisted. After I was in the dress my girlfriend marched me towards the window for a better look in full view of the other customers. I was dizzy with embarrassment, but I bought the dress. When we got back to my place we had the wildest sex ever. Another thing I crave from a dominant woman is drinking fine wine. We are both wearing pretty dresses, we have a wine glass each. Her glass contains wine, but mine contains her pee. Yum! Unfortunately this has only happened once.

Do have sex sex as Sarah?
I have not had sex as Sarah often but I did have sex with my wife wearing her nighties. (My wife passed away several years ago and I now live alone.) She knew I liked wearing feminine clothes and that I was highly aroused wearing a bra, stockings and a garter belt. We didn’t do this all the time but I think she got more satisfaction when I was in that state of arousal. Now that I live alone I wear women's underwear all the time. I don't have any male underwear at all.

Have you ever been with a guy?
No, I have never been with a man sexually. I have a strong feminine side to my character but I am 100% heterosexual. Having said that if I met you with a gay male friend and you needed pictures of me with a guy and ordered me to have sex with him, then I would. That would be to satisfy you rather than me. If you wanted me to suck his cock and swallow his sperm then I would do it for you.

Thanks, that’s so sweet of you. Have you ever been to a dominatrix? I bet you’d be into it.
Yes I have been with a dom prostitute but I found the experience very impersonal and businesslike. I would prefer to know the girl and have a more intimate understanding of each other’s desires. I just prefer the idea of friendship and sex rather than a business deal.

Well maybe you just need to find a different dom, one you can connect with. I’ve met some amazing ones! So what do you find so erotic about being peed on/drinking piss?
I don't think anyone could say they like the taste of piss anymore than they could say they like the taste of shit. But this is not the point. The whole point is the erotic humiliation factor, being ordered to satisfy the woman. I really enjoy it and I hope it happens again one day.

Do many of your friends and family know about Sarah?
Very few people are aware of me being Sarah, maybe 3 or 4. None of my group of friends know.

How come you keep it a secret?
I guess it's because the other side of my character is just as strong and very macho. I think many people in my circle would be very surprised if they knew I was Sarah. I live openly as a manly person who drinks beer and goes to football even though I am wearing frilly panties under my jeans and t-shirt. It’s mostly when I get home that I take off the outer layers and put on a pretty dress or a sexy negligee. I will go out in a see-through chiffon blouse with my bra clearly visible, but it will be covered up with a jacket. Though if you told me to remove my jacket at any time to embarrass me, then I would do it.

So what happens when I put those photos on my blog? What if your friends see them?
I will just die if they find out, but that is what I need. I need to be humiliated. That is so erotic.